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Yatttaaaa!!!! Man I find myself saying this ever so often and yahoo too haha.
Well weeks been alrite till Friday nite!!!
Wow tat was incredible, we had a LASALLE goodbye goodman party! man tat rocked. The crowd I expected really to be more, i mean come on man Alumni. but it was great you know, meeting all the classmates (been a really really long time, and they all look great) met some senior juniors, a real nice get together overall you know.

I went to watch Transformers after the party!!1
Holy hell, tat was the shit man...I really have no words to describe it.
It was incredible, awesome, I would give it 10 emmys awardsx for wateevr category man. It was just whoo!!! Adrenaline pumping, Michael Bay is one hell of a director, god bles him. Of course being be, I went to watch it again today hahah. And u know wat makes a good movie? You go watch it the second time, and the feeling of watching the first one is still there. Just pure picture perfection! I was so psyched by the soundtrack of the movie, I bought the album hahaha. And it was worth it!! and now i;m obessesd on finiding the ring tone for me phone blah!

Just the other day we had a couselling session part of the exam yea. I found out that, I get mostly irritated and agitated and frustrated and angry easily at home then anywhere else. Like for example, now, I;m blogging and suddenly my idiotic dad calls me and tells me to get something from below, and i;m angry. And earlier wen i was watching tv, and my aunt said something about something and my frustration just shot up. I ahve no idea why, just is. But if a friend calls me or anything i;m fine with it. Anger problems? I think it starts with family. Till the next!

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A new job, a new day. Life is looking up, dreams can start being realised. I feel good, but sometimes having the feeling of good can be bad, and what u have in front of you will be bad. So i;m trying not to be too excited and am trying not to keep my hopes to high up. I mean come on I;m wokring in Sinda, all indians, not that i;m against them or anything, hey I'm indian, It's just tat it's Sinda for crying out loud. I took it because seriously, i needed a job lol, its good pay and it's contract for one year. So hey why not, take a job for one year, then after hopefully a better job comes along and i shall go for tat yea. Hehe.

I'm starting to have ideas and plans, that I'm afraid I can'[t acheieve or can't reach. I know brooding about it ain't helping unless I do something about it. But everytime I wanna start doing that something or that urge to know tat if I did that I know it would work, but there's always the emotion of fear that stops me from doing the things I wanna do. What if it dosent work out, What if this What if tat. I keep analysing the what if's and suddenly find that the project is not worth doing. It's called putting myself down and it really sux, I wish I was more bold at times and more just out there, sometimes I feel I wanna be somewhat famous, for everybody to know who I am, must be a crab thing. I wanna do a bit of everything, I;m 24 and yet i still dunno know what I want in life. I wanna hang out with the "cool" gang, be someone "cool", I know it's not like me to mention this, I keep telling everyone it dosen't matter not to be cool, Cool is being yourself. I am myself, but I still feel like an outcast. Maybe its the way I portray myself, I am fat and ugly and am not cool. Pathetic innit, oh well, I have to start doing something and hope my flesh is as strong as my mind. It's always been weak and now I hope it can be strong.

Thing is I always want to try, but I am afriad to go further then think it. Like I have a project in my mind, I type it out, it looks good then suddenly I find myself thinking it won't work. I tell my friends they say it's a good idea, but that's it and that's a full stop for me too. I have to be pushed and there;s noone there to do it. The only way i push myself to finish something it put off something till the very last minute where I hacve no choice but to finish it. *Sigh* OH well tat's my life. and I hope there will be some changes soon.