Runt part 1

Procastination at its finest, those were the exact words used when I told a friend of mine that I had 3 assignments of 1500 words wach due next week. What makes us more like me do that? It sucks really, knowing that you only have a few more days left and haven't done anything. Now that I'm not working I should have finished least one by now, but no!

Distractions that comes from within. I think too much? Not lately, till now. When I think I write, haha. So games are the biggest form of my ditraction, I have an online game that I had subsribed too for about 2 years now, it's awesome, its like i;ve known these people in there for 2 years so we kinda get along. I play this game now like wen I get up say bout 1ish till about 4ish in the morning. It's addictive why? Not just pbecoz of the puzzles, but becauise i meet people get to talkwell type and u know have fun. It's just then i realized that like a Sim we need to interact socially or be all sulky and mood out. My bro's gone to the army andmy friends are kinda busy. I have so many types of friends, those who wanna go clubbing, those who wanna watch movies, those who wanna go have coffee and those whom just wanna chill and talk well basically have coffee haha. So being me, I would more liekly have coffee first then movies and clubbing is like a mood thing and also a budget thing.
That and also working and meeting people and actually making new friends, I found out many things about myself that I wasnt say about 5 years ago. I used to think i;m anti-social, but actually i;m very social but of course to the ones that i can be social with. I have friends who think that I should meet their friends, whom somtimes can be a bitchy or proud but my friends think that becoz they can get alng with them I can get along too, which sounds really stupid, because its up to the individual and sometimes they ask me wy and how come I dont like her/him, i;m like i just don't. period. and they go liek oh she/h's not too bad. I just ignore it. somtimes theypull this confused black face. I just ignore it haha. REcently some of my firendssay that i;m more like a guy's girl more than a girly girl. Which i found interesting, coz that coming from two guy's who said tat makes it rite haha. I dunno I like the way I am, being all girly isnt fun. Well growing up in a rough family well more like so many boys innit made me all tuff hehe I guess its a good thing in a way. funny though mst of my friends are girls but they're all the sam, not girly girl cept a few of them i errmm try not to get too close too hahah. Coz all they would end up tlking about is boys boys and shopping and boys and in the end themselvs. Like get a life. I like boys but i do not talk about them everytime we meet! sheesh! What else, I am more calmer these days and am wanting to look good. Sounds bad? not really haha. I used to think what the hell who;s gonna look, i still do though for the certain places i go out too hehe.

Words of wisdom, You can do it. No matter how hard it is, no matter how wierd it sounds you can do it. "you can do it, I know u can" those were the words my mentor told me when i was going doign a tuff research thesis paper for my degree, and guess what i did. And till this day, I am able to tell myself that and get through with the most difficult times of my life. SO I would liek to thank Him. tony See. for being there, being such an excellent motivator and not giving up on me. It has really played such a huge impact, coz no one really put that much faith into me till he came along and unleashed my potential, sounds corny yes, but its true. I've never felt more special. That was a good tme and now i;m back to square one lol. Well that;s life rite?

You're special, but you dont know it. It made me think why tell a person you love them u miss them, and u wished u got to know them better wen they're dead than wen they're alive. Its the wiedest thing in out human nature but its happening everywhere. I watch Miami Ink, and this girl who didnt talk to her dad for 3 years, the dad passed away 4 motnhs ago and she only spoke and got to know him better for the last dying month of his. And then now VT shootings and everyones mourinign the deahs. What could have been prevented and why do everyone treat everyone differently? Sensitivity, trash talk, emotions get control of them. Had a bad family environment, get control of them. You dont have to have a gun to look cool, you dont have to smoke, drink or get into fites to look cool or be cool even. Be you, for what you're worth and everyone will like you. You dont ave to wear tons of make-up to look pretty, you dont have to starve to be beatiful. Take control of your life and dont be like others. Follow your heart and not your eyes. What you see it not what you should be. Well at least I think so..well enuff of my rantin. More to follow soon..now to get back to my assignemts,