Convo. Morn and WOMAD Night

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately,
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
- Gavin Degraw, I don't wanna be

Yes, yes, finally Convocation, it's over but still 1 more year to go. Yesterday Saturday was the happiest day after like so long. It been quite some time, since i met me classmates, so it was pretty awesome.

I was sitting beside Azfar in the hall, and we had a good laugh he is the jokester, i tell u, laugh and laugh until so hungry hehe. Haha funny sia, esp the stupid screen with people telling us that it's a whole new world out there and congrats, like duh! of course lah. Stupid sia, on top of that repeat and repeat. Sheesh!

Anyways, we went on stage got or cert left te hall for makan around 1145 like that, eat until cannot eat ready, was so happy to see my foundation friends. Sigh! All leaving so soon, THANK YOU MSN!!!! otherwise cannot keep in touch. So we took photos, after talked and was so much fun, missing all of them. Maybe we can have a reunion party...hmmm after 10 years.

Oh oh oh oh, one lecturer slipped and one following her bnehind fell down the stairs of the stage, like heloo, .if you saw the lady in front of you slip, shouldn't you be more careful, wasted i could not luagh put loud hehe. Anyways, everybody looked good i tell you, and did i tell you i don't like my face on photos, so fat and ugly *Bleh*!

Okay so i had to leave early, coz my uncle was driving me back and then WOMAD was due that night. I wanted to sleep but could not, not excitement, i just couldn't lah. So got dressed up and met Delfy (my cuz) and Sarah at 930, we reached Fort around 10 and made our way to the main stage, happening but too crowded, so we went to meet our former colleagues and friends. and my god i just found out i am an ANTI-SOCIAL person. Also i found out, People don't like me, and i found out that i am not a good person. I don;t know why! Somebody please tell me WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME PLEASE!!!!!!

Anyways, so anyways, there was something happening at the stage on the top, played by something Khan, indian music, and i tell you i thought would pick up the pace but no, the crowd was good for the music though, i saw one guy lying down on his partner's laps so sweet and then i was thinking son some one goign to do Yoga, me and my cuz left, like hello lor, i can listen to this music on SUN TV hehe. SO bad rite. Anways, i though the night was going to be like that, we can only blame ourselves for comeing so late. We then went down to the main stage again, Sarah wanted to say Hi to Sheena, again I repeat i am an ANTI- SOCIAL person and PEOPLE don;t LIKE Me! Sigh! so me and my cuz were sititng in the stairs and then comes MOONIE !!! whoo hoo! so long no see her, she lost so[ much weight, and she cut her hair short, but she's looking good man, then we talked she told wat's in store and she so sweet she gave us drink coupons, two some more. So sweet rite. haha. Then we alekd a while more, And then it happened DAARA J, came on stage and made my day.

DAARA J, DAARA J, wow, they're this hip hop african rap group and they are just phenomenal. The music was so spritual and hip that it made a fan out of me. Oh, one of the singers from sengal he looked cute, but DJ was cuter. DAARA J, theír dressing and hair and everything about them was so cool. Especially when they danced and rapped, it was just so awesome. I LOVE DAARA J! So they left after giving an excellent performance, so cool! We made our way to the club set with TALVIN SINGH! Brudder Brudder!

Hindi songs mixed with dance and trance music, some were awesome and some were irriating as Mr. Singh, kept repeating the verse over and over agian. then suddenly there was this sharp sund, part of the music, it hurt our ears i tell u, and then suddenly there was smoke, at one point in time, i could not see my cuz man, so thick and it smelled like thouse plastic bubbles and we put on the end of stick and blow. Man!

Oh oh, at one point in time we three wer facing in other and dancing right then suddnely there was this Ang Mor guy, holding a beer can in his hand and think he was trying to get through us and he bumped into me, with his can, and i looked up and he gave this Smile that showed all his teeth and his eyes were blue and it looked straight inot my eyes and his hair was golden and he was white right, It was so SCARY! Yes SCARY! Go figure! *shudder* He looked liek a psychopath! Seriously.

Then we were doing bangra moves and chilling and cannot tahan d, all day awake, need sleep, legs wobbly and feet hurting, and music started to get sucky, we made our way out went to get a drink and saw DORIS! so talked for awhile and then we sat at the stairs cooling orselves and chilling out and then DAARA J walked up, so cool, i wanted to scream DAARA J you rock, I did not, they went to the club set and then after a while came back down this time i really wanted to say something, I tell I NO GUTS sia! I felt like an ass, then Sarah went back to the club set for awhile and then DAARA J cmae back up again i tell u it was my chance, my heart said go for it and my mind stopped me, Have You Had The Feeling??? Coz this one was obvious, i wanted to clap again my hands failed me. No idea why, they were just there stanidng for awhile, then after that they left, dude i felt so sad. Sigh!

Then Srah came out and we Saw Cutie!!!! Kamini i mean from LASALLE as well, she's our seniour by one year, she was in Manchester doing her degree,m was supposed to meet up with her when she was here, but could not, felt bad, but hey fate has it's way. We talked and then we saw a few others working in the drinks sectiuon with us, i thought he would not recognise me, but he did, i was surprised and we hugged and talked. It was really awesome.

We left around 245am said to everyone bye and i told MOon to take a photo of DAARA J, esp the DJ hahah. He very cute lah! Photos Photos i reminded herm, haha, maybe that's why people don;t like me, am i an Air head????

So the night ended, we shared a cab back home, it was a good day Saturday, I love it!!!!!!!!!!

I can feel you breathing, and it's keeping me awake,
Can you feel it beating my heart's sinking like a weight...
- Yellowcard, Breathing

I'm hooked on that song, the music is so up and down and the violin makes it tranceful, if there's a word.

Anyways, i seem to be taking long breaks from this blogging, that's coz my life ain't that interesting. It's always been uninteresting. Oh well, so what have i done for the past few weeks, well watch tv go to class, watch tv eat sleep. Good life init!? i'd say. Well, that's very much of my everydfay life. Saturday and Sunday would be outing day if there's an out to go to. All me friends are busy that's coz they're working. Well, last week me and me bro had good old fun.

Oh Oh we have the workout ball, wow the back ache's gone when you stretch yourself on that. NICE! hehe. Also the NEW VOYUER SUX!!!!!! Eeewwwww, it's white and blue and the paper quality so thin, toilet paper also better. The words are so big, so not interesting to read. Sigh!

What else, oh my presentation on my thesis paper is on the 5th of Oct and guess what i haven't finlaised my topic yet. I'm so screwed. I'm on the edge of bankrupcy and Sally saved me life....Thank you to Sally!

I be going to watch The Village today, My friend's treating me coz she owes me 2 movie tix hehe, so this is one. hehe.

I had a nightmare the other day! Me and my good friend Usha were walking at Bukit Ho Swee (my old time house), Anyways, we met her uncle and cousin which she don't like, and the girl her cousin started crying and Usha just ignored saying she's just an attention seeker. I decided to console her bein the good sole that i am (*Cough!*Cough!), anways she said that everybody was making fun of her because she's way too short for her age,13. Stupid right! Well it is a nightmare. Anyways, then we were in the lift, she stayed on the 9th floor and i on the 11th. The dad got out on the 9th and i noticed that he had suffered a stroke and as a result he hand could not move oh u know how a strokes person u knnow. Okay anwyays, when he got out, the lift closed itself and i could not press it open so i decided to bring Usha's cousin to my home then briong her back. I got off the lift on the 10th floor to walk up the stairs, next thing i knew i was carrying the girl and walking slowly and silently as if something was there, towards a long corridor that led to no where. Okay then Usha right was already going on her own right, and i was following, everything was dark and there were red lights those from the Chinese Gods kind of prayer thingys, freaky right. Then i saw this white old guy, and i looked down I was just holding onto the girl as tight as possible trying not to look frightened. Then this guy was playing football, all i could hear was the ball hitting the floor i looked up and yeah he was Chinese and had a red glow around him, sheesh i decided not to panic but walk slowly, he then stopped the ball, looked at me and pointed down. Nothing freaky rigt, i thought he was my angel, i tell you, he was like protecting from something. And then i walked down the stairs, and another corridor again, all the doors were closed no noise just incense and red glow, i walk walking this time a bit faster, and then i saw something at the corner of my eye at the other building. A man, wearing, a green tee shirt and shorts and the freakiest part was he was not in the house but scaling from bottom to top like gliding and i knew it was coming towards us. I panicked and ran, thinking he would not find us i ran faster heard footsteps, very close by, and then i turned to a corner and dead end. I wanted to knock on the door of somebody's house but something was forcing me not to, wierd out! then it was there just standng there and looking at us, as if we had done something horrid. HIs eyes were blank, his fae contorted in a smiling way, it was fraeky, gosh writing this is giving me the jitters. I then woke up, cold sweat i tell you! So horrible. It's just so freaky...

I have been having many dreams and nightmares and they all last pretty long. I wonder why!

Oh well, i gtg now! till after the movie! Syonara!