Thre days and all so not interesting

Okay so i'm gonna start backwards

Friday (28/5)
I woke up at 12 as usual. was supposed to go swimming turned out there were too many hunks and babes around. And the swimming pool we always go to was under renovation, the wimming pool at her place at the country club we could not go, because her dad's card had expired, therefore decided to go Jurong East Swimming pool, we paid the cash, got in and yes, many many people around, and all skinny ones, sigh, she and me are very self-concious, u know, both of us in swimming costume, look like ham walking around, well at least more so me than her, so yeah, wait too many people see and laugh how, then we decided to go back to the country club ,it seems can pay $2 and go in, we went in, and then we had to give our ic at the counter, wah liow, so sian, heck already, we didn't go swimming after all, going on Monday this time at Delta.

Saturday (29/5)
Let's see, i had to work, yes work. A one day job, well, it's filling in for a friend, Debbie. But i get paid for it, so what the hell. Remember the Gallery Sitting job, i said earlier, well yeah Debbie got it. So i started at 11am, man i woke up like so early, at 9am, hmmm. Went there, and all i did was sit and guard the gallery, so boring, lucky i brought my book, and i finished it, haiz. Bored like hell. 11am - 7pm, doing nothing, but stare into space. Luckily i had worked at the Arts House before, so i knew the people in it and they talked, so i did not feel so lost.

Sunday (30/5)
Another day, i woke up at 1130am, and well watched nothign actually, my uncle came and watched Sun Tv, this Indian Channel and then yah lor, but were of funny shots, so it was funny. And then well now just sitting an typing, doign nothing. Later, gonna meet my mum. Skipping shurch again, am i a sinner or what, i feel bad, but i dunno lah. Just that feeling of laziness again on a Sunday.

Had a nightmare, hope it don;t come true

Another night, another dream.

This time, i got my results slips back, transcripts. Yesh!
D-day. Anyways, i was looking at it and it showed my worst fears.
Yes, Passes and Failures. Oh my god. But somehow i managed to pass, with 56%. but not enough to go Melbourne. Oh my God, then i saw another transcript, Sally's one, she got 71%. Like whoa man.

Haiz. Then i woke up. I very scared now man. feel dam shitty.

Had a dream, hope it'll come true

Am very tired and sleepy, thought i should write this down, before i forget about the whole thing.

I actually had a dream about Linkin Park. Well, not exactly them, but i was at their concert. It was so funny and wierd, the concert was indoors, like Harbour Pavilion (last time one at WTC, the lights were right mode. Me and Sarah were there and we came in late, and were standing at the front row, near the stage. Coolest thing, no barricades, till someone in the audience, told us to sit down on the seats. Seats at LP concert? 1st wierd thing. The other wierd thing was Felecia came into the picture, yeah and she and Sarah were standing on the other corner of the place, i could see them, wanted to join them, but was afraid, of getting scolded again. Then, suddenly there were games, like a game show, only this time was the Chinese kind. Haha, second wierdest thing. I was waiting and so excited that LP were going to perform any moment, when when

Grrrrrr...my cousin came and pinched me awake, grrrr.

Anyone wanna analyze this dream??? Man i felt like i was in the LPU and gonna meet them. Coolest dream ever man.

Good Old Fun

Been two days, well nothing much happen..except alot of fun fun fun.

Just finished watching CSI and NYPD BLues, yeah back to back, advert change channel, boring change channel. Wasfun. Got back at 1am today, lucky my aunt was asleep, wait i die, she'll lock me out man.

Why i came back at 1. Here's what happened today.

I was supposed to got to work today right. Well, my friend msged me saying 'u don;t need to come today, but come in on Saturday'. So i'm like okay, but before that i received an sms from Sally at 730am sayning Joyce wants her Ramyana book back today and she said she would like to advice us and talk to us about the future.
I told her i can;t i've got work at 2pm. Then i slept and Deb msged me saying well yeah not to come in today around 12pm. Man, i could've gone school. Anyways, i decided to go toschool, went Deb msged me agian asking me to ocme in around 4pm, i said i can't needed to meet Joyce at 3pm. Then i go so lay and stuff till i only left my house aorund 5pm. Man, that sucked.

When i got to school it was around 6pm, and what a surprise Joyce was not there. So i left the books with Venka. Then met Chris and Azfar, had a bit of time to spend, so they went to the music room and played the instruments. Chris played the piano and Zfar played the drums. I was surprised that he could play, needs practice though, but allswell. I kept watch, haiz, wish i could play some insturment. must go learn when i got the cash.

Then we went to the Animation and Video Graduation show. Went there to support my friend Fadhil. He's a really cool guy, very funny as well. His animation rocks, was cool. Then met up with Johnathon, my foundation year friend. So long no see him. He can drive now, idiot hehe. Drove his mum's car to school. I wanted to leave when they suggested to go for a movie. It was quite late around 9 and once the movie was done i could not take the bus. Johnathon said he'll drop me off, hehe so sweet. hehe. So yeah went to watch 'The Day After Tommorow. The movie kicks ass man. I rally enjoyed it. Before the movie though we had a bit of time in our hands, went to the arcade, played racing, hah good old fun.

Well as i was saying the movie is terrific, only for those who are interested to know how the world can end. Jake Gyllenhaal is such a cutie. *sigh*

Anyways, so that's explains why i got back at 1am. So today was great. Never thought i'd get back so late and not get caught. Thank god. Very SLeepy now, tommorow is another day....

Fun Day was today...

Hot Hot Hot, haha, not today. Yes sir, today was a beautiful day, it was not that hot, it was just what i would say okay, not perfect though.

Night has fallen, and it's been so fast that i felt i had just awoken. The day just went by so quickly.

Anyways, Sunday went to my friend's Begum's house after the workshop at Lavendar. Oh yeah, the workshop: a disaster, horrible, almost no people and we had to lower the price from $12 to $8, way low, and to top it all off, we didn't get paid yet, becasu eit was a coupon system. They said they'll give us a call, i hope they do it fast though. Skipped church, went to me girlfriend's house and we (Malar, Begs and me) watched the Prdhana Vizha and indian grammy award kind of thing local one of course, blah blah. We talked about what's happeing and stuff, i always have the best times, when hanging out with them. We decided to stay at Malar's house in June, a BBQ at her place then go out, sounds cool? Well i think so, hehe.

Well, Sunday was okay, went aite, then before i knew it Monday came. Set my alarm to 10am but only woke up at 12pm. Haiz! so sleepy, hehe. Had to go to school, was late took a cab, waste money. I was so happy to be in school, it seemed like a 10 year reunion party hehe, and all me classmates remained the same, heheh. So well, it was good to see almost everyone, and it was sad to part. Had a good time with them, gosh i''m gonna miss them dearly, well only the ones, whom i know i;m gonna mis at least, but Thank God for the internet and thank interenet for the msn, the email system and now blogs..hehe.

Today's topic: Degree in AM. Well, i have a feeling i'm not gonna pass to go and get a Degree, but i have a strong urge to take it. So i am scared yet i am confident, it's a very wierd feeling.

After the so called parting, Sally and me wanted to go Macritchie, yes yes to jog, and it's not boasting *hinting to Azfar*, hehe, we took bus number 14 thinking it'd stop at Bugis, and so it didn't it stopped opposite Bugis, we dropped at Shaw Towers, and surprise surprise, we went to watch a movie. hehe. Shrek 2 was our weight loss expert. hehe.

Shrek 2, is funny, i didn't watch 1, but it told the story, the donkey reminded me of Azfar so much in common with him man, the teeth, the annoyance (hehe), and then there's the 3 little pigs, Chantalle, Kerine and Doris, then there's Prince Charming, so Firdaus hehe, oh well, the movie was brliiant, it had all the fairy tales characters in it, hah aso funny.

It was almost 8 when the movie was done. Malar called me, the conversation went:

Malar: 'Marie, you busy ah?'
Me: 'No, wassuop?'
Malar: 'Want to go for audition?'
Me: 'Audition? What audition?'
Malar: 'Mediacorp Vasantham Central'
Me: Hhahahahhah! You think my Tamil that good is it...
Malar: 'Just go lah, they looking for actors/actresses'
Me: 'I not interested in acting malar, you go lah'
Malar: 'No you must come'
Me: 'You go i follow'
Malar: 'No you also must come'
Me: 'Please lah hor' You interested is it?
Malar: 'No lah'
Me: 'What the hell, then why you ask'
Malar: 'Just for fun lah'
Me: Stupid
Malar: hahhaha okay bye

End of conversation

Hhaha, this girl is just funny, man, why the hell would i want to act? She said then can win the Prdhana Vizha award thingy...hahha funny man she. Well, she perked up my day as well.

Home Sweet home, watched tv, watched me bro play Playstation and now on Blogsville.

Tommorow, a long day....

Oh well

Okay, so what happened, lotsa things, not exactly but yeah, if you know what i mean,

Okay it's a Saurday and i woke up at 745am having slept at 4am, for the workshop at Lavendar. It was a really really hot hot day yet again, hmmm, i woke up started to pack stuff, brought a whole box, which was heavy over there. My uncle Roland, gave me a hand and he gave me a lift as well to Lavendar, hehe, save taxi fare.

So then i waited for my partner Sally, and then we went to set up our stuf. Best part: Nothing actually, Worse part: hmmm, let's see, it's a hot hot day, the number of fans were limited, no wind, no people to do our workshop, and didn;t make any profit. Sigh!!! Oh well, let's hope tom, will be better though!

Anyways, omg, today was a horrible day as well, my aunt found out about my bro, owing poeple money and stuff and betting, and it became a whole big issue of course. My brother got slapped my anither uncle and i cried, I don't like people rasing hands on the ones i love, i cry. Oh well, i'll keep praying for him, no matter what happens i'll always be there my his side. supporting him, although he is in the worng. Oh well. I love very much and very dealry. just that he does not see that yet. I guess, its the phase in life, a teenager.

Well, then so nothing much else happened, oh yeah my frind Chritiaan, my my he put on weigh and he looked buffed, Good fer him, coz he must get prepared for the army, though he still looks plae though.

Well, let's hope Sunday will be a better day, and i need $150 for LP concert...dam...

Again someting i wrote...

Have we got no say at all
In this pretentious world we are living in

Have we got no say at all
What we think of this world today

Speak they say, voice out your opinions
But what if we do speak, do we get arrested for voicing out the truth

Truth about how we are be left in the dark
Of what’s happening around us today

No worries, everything is under control
How is it that you have taken things under control, war or peace?

War is not a pretty thing, but to obtain peace this is the way
What about other ways, ways in which negotiations are used

We have tried our best and the result is war they say
Did they actually find peace after the war or did it make it worse

More of them there will be in the future
More war and yet no peace

What’s the point in fighting when nothing is going to resolved
Live life freely and happily, cause if you don’t then no one will!

- Maria '04

Not a bad day after all...

Song in my head, The Reason by Hoobastan. Why no idea. Verse, 'I found a rason for me, to change who i used to be...'Why no idea.

Anyways, what's been up? hmm...nothing much, i daresay the weather is heating up agian. Dam....Hot, even as i sit infront of my comp, i'm perspiring like i'm in aa hot tub or something.

So okay i missed Angel, Boo hoo! Again, i told myself last night i'd watch it today, but hell no, i didn;t wake up till like 1130 and then i had to go down to meet Sally for this workshop we're having at Lavendar.

Hope: To get as much money to firstly, recover the money we spent for the masks and then a PROFIT of OnE mIlLiOn dollars..muahahah...who am i kidding, i just wish i can make enough for me to get a ticket for the Linkin Park Concert coming June 22 at The padang...Yeah!! whoo hoo! hehhehe. As you can see i'm a fanatic of LP. I went to their concert in KL, sneaking out, telling home i'm at the chalet and even skipping school. Wow that was the best day of my life, and the irst time i've done something daring. But of course with friends lah, if not i won;t go alone man. heheh.

Anyways, the workshop starts tom and finishes on Sunday. I then have a gallery sitting job for ONE DAY ONLY! Wow! heheh. But it's good coz then i have $40 doallrs. You must think i'm pathetic, i probably am, no job, no money, but it's cool.

Yesterday was a eye candy day. hehe. I had tpo go to church for mass becuase it was the Ascension, at 7pm. I wore my denim skirt and a red blouse, and my face was as horrible as ever. found a empty space sat fdown and infornt of me sits a guy and my god, he's so cute, dam it, he was sitting infront of me, hehe. Could only see his side face, cute. And then we had to tell 'peace' to everyone, and he turned and said peace, and hubba hubba, heheh, hes just cute lah.

Ahh well, i was half expecting to see the ang moh guy who i had my eye on for a long long time. Saly, he did not come, come to think of it it's been awhile.

Anyways, was supposed to go watch a movie with me Sec. school mates, Van Helsing, I have the cash, but i don;t want to spend it, coz i know i'll need it soon enough.

Saw the Lions at Raffles Place, quite cool, some were just so
corny. Was listening to POwer 98 in the bus and wow, they were like playing all the shiok songs, it was simply fantastic. Came back home at 5pm sat and watched television, watched Nikelodeon. hehe.

Am going to watch Nick back at 7.30, the brother garcia, u guys should watch it, quite cool. Oh well nothing else happend. Oh yeah i saw Ramada, this singer on this Tamil Variety show, that me and my friend can't stop looking at. hehe. He's looks cute and cool on tv, but when i saw him today, i changed my mind. hehe. Well, he just looked like an indian from india, if you know what i mean, Well that's it for now. Will write soon.

Understanding: someting i wrote

I wrote this when i my my friend grately misunderstood some stuff, i got so angry with her and wrotethe below.

Undertstanding

Understanding is not an easy thing to do
Especially when you’re full of yourself and have nothing else to do

Understanding can take days or months or years
And no one can accomplish it within and hour

Understanding is not an option
It’s part of your life, and you have to deal with it

Understanding another is as tough as committing yourself
It will eat you alive if you misuse it

Understand the world surrounding you
Which is cruel yet happy at times

Understand your neighbour
Why they do that which is forbidden

Understand yourself
Before you think about others

Understand the truth
You’re nothing more than just a human

Understand the power
You don’t have when you are in trouble

Understanding these will not be easy
But whoever said everything was meant to be easy
- Maria '04

Comments anyone? i know it's sux..hehe, am not a good write am i?
Anyways, when i get angry or miserable and happen to be infront of my computer i just write stuff that comes from my mind. But i don't know if it makes sense or not. Oh well.

Do comment....

What a day

Didn't write anything yesterday, was watching television...

What i did yesterday, hmmm i was watching my brother play Harvest Moon on Playstation, that bugger didn't go to school again! two days in a row, he asked me to type a letter to his teacher, i said no, and he said pls lah, hahha so funny, i pitied him and said okay. So i typed him a letter and forged me mam's signature. hehe.

Anyways after that i had emailed to a few friends and colleagues regarding trips and my salary, and only my friends have replied and not the dam colleague, she sux..grrr. I got another email regarding ushering and she said she'll add me to the list, and email me when there is positions available so it's cool.

Darn, i didn't get the job, but i can work on one day (Saturday), i think it's filling in for my friend, but it's okay as long as i get the money. heheh mean init!

Well, i finally went for a jog, surprisingly i could jog, like halfway but i then walked, hehe. The best part about the jog is i didn't have any shortness of breath, i was like wow. I was breathing heavily and deeply though, but as long as i didn't have to use the puff init?

I then came back home around 10, took a shower, i felt so refreshed, i then started to play Playstation. I tell you that game is addictive, but not as addictive as Buffy, CSI and NYPD Blue. Yeah they all rock! hehe. Say whatever you want, but i like these shows.

I played till about 1230, missed half and hour of Buffy, but i could relate to the story, then at 1am i watched CSI on cable, i tell you that show rocks like crazy,I love Eric Szmanda, he's so cute. Half way thru i was thinking 'what the hell am i doing watching CSI when they're replaying it tommmorow at noon? why don't i play Playstation?' but i did not, CSI is too good. hehe. After CSI i channel surfed and guess what i found, NYPD Blue, whoo hoo! I so forgot, and i watched that till 3am. I then wanted to play the game, but was too sleepy. the sad part is i missed Charmed and thought i could watch it today but......

I woke up at a whooping 1230, a slob aren't i? *sigh* I set my alarm at 10 but i switched it of and slept like a baby. hehe. now am writing this blog, it's becoming a habit, and it's fun. A miracle happened too, remember i said i could not access my msn. holy crap, i could just now. Wow! it was just amazing. I think God made it happen hehe, he understood how depressed i was not having msn. Oh well let's hope the comp, will recover itself.

Well, that's about it, hope everything goes well. Having a workshop, hope to make some cash out of it.

Hoping and Praying

Whoa! It has been more than 2 days since i wrote something.

Okay, well, my computers giving problem. Man this really really sux, the windows program in my computer cannot be found!!! And i can't access my msn messenger. For two days i was left wondering and well i tot how about downloading again, that's wat i'm doing now just hope it works.

Okay it doesn't work, i feel so alienated, no calls, no MSN! Only way of keeping in tpuch with friends and its down the drain! Grrr...My uncle can fix the problem, but i need to bring the CPU to jhis place, and i need to take a cab, that one also i no money! Sigh! So i guess one week no MSN!!! NO life!!! grrrrr....

Anyways, what i have been doing for the past few days. Everydya seems liek a Saturday when u're at home! Hmm, i went to my friend Malar's house,it's been so long since i saw her and another friend of mine Begum. They're both the best friends that i could ever have. I then stayed at home for two whole days, playing nothing but Playstation, I'm so addicted to the game Harvest Moon:Back to Nature.

Got an email from my lecturer stating about a job as a gallery seater, called today and it's from this Saturday to next Monday, ten whole days. I was happy, but the sad part is i can't make it this Saturday due to workshop committments. I told the person and she said she'll get back to me! I so hope i will get it. I need the cash, for loads of reasons and the job will do, I am so stuck in a dilemma. Help!

I was supposed to go joggin today, but felt lazy, oh why oh why. Tom will be meeting Sally and Ayu to jog again. Same time Same place. Whoo hoo!

Sally msged me just now asking me to give her $180 dollars for the masks. Hell where to get the cash??? I just hope i can get it from my aunt, as it is i already owe her some cash. I am so hoping!!!

My cuz came over today , long time no see him. He and his stupid beard. hehe. My aunt came over too. Man so many poeple. So happening. hehe.

A letter came for the degree programme and my aunt read it thru. She asked me how? I said i don;t know, coz i really want to go to Melbourne. She said why not try it out, just send in the from, i tot about it and was like why not, if my results are not good enough to go Melbourne i can continue here init? And so i filled up the form but not yet mailed it. Tom will be the day.

My Aunt in Canda called and asked me to buy her mother in law blouses from CK at Chinatown, those durian looking ones. Said her mother in law wanted four of them. Hmm i wonder how she'd look like hehe.

My 21st Birthday, couldn't get a chalet, am so very dissapointed, very very dissapointed. I had it all planned out, and because of 1 late reply, man the whole thing crashed. Some said do at home, i tot if like tat, it's like a normal B-day, u know, plus the environment at my place, puh-leaseeeee, no party! I WANT a party!!! So tom, i'm gonna look for a place, either a room or a hall at the CC near by me place or some where else, where its cheap. My mum said she'll sponsor me so it's cool!

Hmm what else, oh yeah saw the trailer for Harry Potter this time on Television and my heart fluttered and my mind went whoozy, and i had this insane smile on my face and let out a scream of joy. I saw the trailer in January actually and then just last month over and over again on the net. YES I am a maniac when it comes to Harry Potter. I'm never too old. I must say Daniel is looking more handsome! hehe. Sigh too young...hehe. REAd all 5 books and they're all excellent i can't wait for the next HP movie the fourth installment. HP and the goblet of fire, oh that should be interesting.

What else, sigh, in conclusion to end this i hope i gett he cash from my aunt and the job that i called. Hope not enough i also gonna pray! Sigh...life is so bored staying at home with nothing to do. Oh oh i also did some friendship bans for myself, hehe but i got bored after awhile. I need to be kept entertained or i get bored easily. Let's hope tom will be a good day! Off now tata!

Dam...

Listening to Reptilia by The Strokes, I am sitting and have been sitting infront of my computer for almost the whole entire day.

It's a new day and this is how i spent it.

It's been a very long and draggy day. Frankly speaking, i have know idea what to do today. School's over, work's over. darn...was looking forward to my jog this evening, turned out my friends did not want to go. Dam it.

Woke up at 930am felt so refreshed. After which, sat on my computer, compiled a new cd, checked emails and oh man, i played games, games and more games. I then went to fetch my cousins from school and then played more games. I tell i have no life!!! hehe.

Well, watched a bit of television, Nickelodeon!!! whoo hoo!! hehe. I simply just love that channel. And now, played more games and well yeha writing a blog.

My friend Malar called and we talked for less than 1 minute. I tried to read a book, but could not do so, as i have just HArry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix and well yeah can't read any book, because Harry's still in my head. hehe. Can't wait for the movie to be out. whoo hoo! Me and Harry go a long way! hehe.

Anyways, now I'm chilling, nothing much to do. Not much programmes on tv, me bro went to play football so boring. He's a real darling. He always make me laugh and i'd be so bored without him.

Well, that's it for today. My life on Friday, is such a bore. Bleh!

Hope tommorow would be better!

Whoa!

Wow, okay they say there's a first time for everything and this is my first time doing a blog.

Today was a really really Hot hot day man the way the sun glazed down was as if there was no ozone layer or clouds at all. Sheez! So hot, i had to go to work and get a singnature from my supervisor. I was scared to go back as i had not been there for more than a month. My supervisor read through my report and said she didn't know what i had been going through and stuff, i so wanted to cry.

After that i went to school to pass up my Log book (yeah it's been awhile). I went home around 4 plus and before i had to leave my house again to go to Macritchie. Hot hot hot!

I jogged with my two friends today and hope to continue almost every other day. After jogging, well i practicarly walked throughout, we had a nice chat. It's alwsys been great having them as company.

I have finished school and yet i feel like i have not. It's been 3 years since i've been in school and it only looks like yesterday i started foundation. I sure am ging to miss everyone i know as they have ben really good freinds and classmates, i'm sure i'll bump into them sometime but i guess it won't be how it used to be.

Well, i feel refreshed after the jog. Arts Management has made a pig out of me. All i do is wake up go to school and go home and when back home sit in front of the computer for hours. Wah liow! no excerccise, no time to excercise. Oh well, it's better now or never init?

Weel that's it for now, tommorow will be a new day!